“Life’s waiting to begin”Tom DeLonge, Angels & Airwaves
I had one of those moments, a moment I’m sure almost everyone has had before. A moment where I sat and asked myself, ‘Well, what happens now?’ or ‘What am I doing with my life?’ It’s a scary moment, you’re raised to believe at such a young age that you are supposed to know what you are doing with your life. But what if you don’t know?
Well, I’m here to say something that took me a long time to learn, and maybe still learning. It’s OKAY to not know what you’re doing in life. Once I came to this realization, that’s when life got a little easier, a little more fun.
There I was, 23 years old and pregnant. It was a little bit different than I envisioned. I always thought at that point in my life I’d be settled down, at least a little bit, married and have an amazing career as a Physicians Assistant (High School Bethany had big dreams). But that’s not how it happened. Yes, I was with an amazing man, who is now my husband, but we weren’t married at the time. I was enrolled in college, my second one, going on 5 years of attempting to finish at least one degree and working retail as a Customer Service Rep at the local grocery chain, Publix.
I hate to say it, but it was almost devastating. My life that I was taking so long to figure out was going to be put on hold, again, for this baby. I was worried about my relationship, since we had gotten pregnant pretty early on into it. I was concerned that I didn’t have a high paying job to provide for this child and that completing a degree seemed to be an even more distant reality.
On December 16th, my beautiful baby girl was born. Immediately, I knew my life wasn’t over, it was just beginning.
Yes, I am still with that crappy retail job, but I decided I was going to finally do something for myself. I’ve always had a passion for books and literature, a new found passion of writing, and now a love of a child I brought into this world. I’ve considered blogging for some time now but could never get myself to actually go through with it. Nerves I guess? But here I am, my first blog post.
So, welcome. I’m here to write everything book, life, love, parenting or just whatever else is going on related. I’m ready to open myself up to the possibilities that blogging has for me and find a community of fellow bloggers/bookworms.
In that, ‘what am I doing with my life’ moment, I made a decision to do something for myself, something that could be rewarding, something risky. I’m glad you’re here to do it with me, because you never know what life has in store for you and it’s time to start living your best life.